I hate you, I hate you more than you can imagine, but I love you. You love me to and I know that, you are going to change and I know that too, I just have to be patience. You just want to show me that you love me when you do what you do. Do you remember the time when you throw me trough the wall? That was only my own fault, and I’m sorry for what I did, you are the only man I should look at. I love you more than my own life, and I would never leave you, you have made it clear that if you go then I would go with you.

What’s left to fight for when you have lost everything you ever loved? What’s left to stay for when you don’t have anything here, what’s left to run for when you don’t have anything to run to? I would give my own life for those I love, but what’s to give when you have no one to give it to. I should start over, find a new life, a new home but the pain of losing everything almost killed me. Can my heart and soul take that burden again?

I loved you. I still love you more than anything. That’s why I had to do what I did, it wasn’t to make you sad. I just wanted to help you and you know that, so you can move on now. I don’t want to see you cry, I don’t want to see you hurt yourself, because of what I did. I never wanted it to happen, but it did and I don’t want anything to change that because you’re safe now and that’s all that matters. To die for someone you love like I did, that matters.

If the one you loved more than your own life told you he didn’t love you anymore, what would you do? Would you fight for him, would you let him go even if doing so would slowly kill you from inside and out, until there was nothing left of you? If he didn’t want to be with you, if he didn’t love you, then you would let him go because you still loved him so much that you would give him everything you had? Even your own life?

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